Larry, I'm so sorry! Yes, it's a very "stunning" feeling when one becomes an orphan. My mother died in 1954 and my father in 1992 and stepmother in 2001. It was odd when my father died and I realized there weren't a whole lot of people who remembered me as a young child before my mother died. My stepfamily I'd known since I was 5 started to unravel (I ceased to "belong" as securely as I had when my father was alive) and all the shifts and plot twist and turns sent me back into therapy. Do you have any siblings, close cousins/relatives? I'm much stronger now than I was 5+ years ago before my stepmother died. But it's a heck of an experience. Wishing you some love and comfort somewhere during your current journey.