Maybe closer to the ideal would be a T who let you grab hold of the boat when needed, but not encourage you to jump into the boat with him?
The problem I have with this, is that he is, in a way, *creating* a need, that was not there to begin with. Now that he's doing this, you 'need' it, but if he had never done it, it may have never even occurred to you. He's creating dependence (I think, not the healthy kind) and causing you to have all of this anxiety and dread, which you wouldn't otherwise have.
As far as helping to establish trust, one of the goals of therapy is for us to learn to trust in our own abilities; what I see here is a kind of presumption that you cannot trust in your ability to get through weekends without this kind of help (you didn't ask for these check-in's, right?). I think needs need to be expressed by the patient and the therapist will respond how they feel best, but to presume such a need -well, this is me, but I find it rather infantilizing --assuming you have less resilience than you probably have, and treating you as such, especially so early in the game.
I think telling you that he wants to hug you (bringing up hugs himself instead of waiting for you to do so, if ever) is inappropriate. The excuse of saying what's on his mind --I mean there are parts of countertransference that most therapists know to keep to themselves, maybe especially at the beginning of therapy. This can make a patient feel pressured to hug (to please the therapist), feel guilty for not doing so, etc., etc. When it comes to touch, especially male T, female patient, I really think these things need to come from the patient and not be initiated (however only verbally) by the therapist.
All and all, he sounds very impulsive to me. (Obviously) I see red flags, but I guess you'll know better with time if he is right for you.
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