Hi
I manage my binge eating. It doesn't ever go away. I just keep it under control by not buying those things I would binge on. Or if I do buy them, buy them only in the amount I can handle eating.

Except now that the cold weather is upon us, where I live, I have started drinking hot chocolate in copious amounts. aka addictive drinking of hot chocolate.

I would not have a problem with it if my digestive system was in good shape. In fact it is very bad. The hot chocolate is not only stopping any progress with healing it. But is making it worse. And it is dangerously bad to begin with.

The hot chocolate is made from amazing gourmet cocoa powder, fat free unsweetened almond milk, water and stevia. Cooked on the stove. it warms me. And it tastes delicious. It also gives me a reason to want to wake up in the morning. But it is making me really sick. Or is impeding any possible healing of the GI system.

I am looking for suggestions. I gave away the bag of cocoa powder. Then 2 days later bought more. I do not relate to OA. Because of the steps. I am too shame based to do them. any suggestions would be so gratefully appreciated. I need to stop making myself sick just for this amazing gratification. Thank you. Sending light to you