I just want to love someone. Is that too much to ask?
25 years of being turned away or held at arm's length. Even by animals...so it's not like I can even go get a pet to love. Maybe it's wrong to look for a significant other to love too...but I can't just get a pet, have a child (as that would be VERY irresponsible), or connect with friends or family on that level as it's way too intense.

I don't know how to cope.