I just hate myself so much sometimes especially now. I just had a huge fight with my bf on the phone. He doesnt understand me but I love him so much. Once he came over after I si VERY VERY badly and he picked me up and cleaned me off. No one ever did that and it meant so much. But he doesnt understand why I act teh way I do.I feel like he hates me and doesnt love me and I just cant stop crying. I wish he was here but he cant be hes working and lives a bit far away. So Im all on my own and I cant deal with this.