Well, I went to the pain clinic today and got methadone and neurontin. The pain doc said that a report of stolen meds is a red flag for addiction and I really need to report it to the police. ARGGHHH. I pre-poured all of the meds for the next 7 days and went to lock the box and found the paddalock is missing so I will have to get a new one. I guess I will be making a complaint to the state police. I am feeling better now but man was my tush, hip, leg sore after that drive. The pain clinic pee-tests you and knows what levels should be in your system when. It makes me feel good because no matter what I do I always have a guilty conscience. It is left over from childhood abuse and not knowing when the bomb will drop.

I hope these meds help. I feel a little funny now, in a sick sense after the first methadone.