I'm sorry, I just can't believe that. I was made by some crappy genetics from an egg and sperm. Not everyone can be a winner in this life, someone has to lose, someone has to miss out and be left behind. I will admit that people tell me all the time that I am "cute", but apparently cuteness is not enough. I am ugly inside and outside, my thoughts wander into darkness, my face turns to stone. Gifted? Gifted with the pleasure of enduring this nightmare until I die a painful death? I have no talents at all. Anyone can do anything better than I can, it is just a fact. I'm not smart. People in gradeschool always called me the "smart kid" just because I was quiet and did my homework. I never got a degree in college, I never went anywhere with my education. Special? Funny. My grandma always said that I was special. Turns out I'm just another human. Who knew? I am a great person? I've said horrible things in the past, one time I was changing high schools and a girl asked me if I would miss her and I flat out told her "No." to her face. Am I loved and cared about? Or is it just an obligation upon my family to say they "care" about me just because I am related to them? If I was not a part of the family and they saw me walking down the street they wouldn't give a f. Some people are just better than others. I happen to be on a very low end part of that spectrum. I'm not an overcomer, I've come close to giving up entirely. I can't do "anything", there are plenty of things I can't do, such as grow wings and fly. I am not strong, I am weak. I can't even lift the lowest weight without hurting badly. I can't believe these things they just aren't true. You'd have to brainwash me first.