Im 18, I first started cutting at 15. I never thought I'd ever do that. I've been hospitalized because of that, Its gotten alot worse. My mom was extremely emotionally abusive towards me growing up. I haven't left home yet because of very bad anxiety problems, I try to avoid her because we dont relate at all, she calls me names that she called me growing up and im really sensitive to it and I'll end up hurting myself I also do that because I hate myself. I've been doing that almost everyday for a year on my left arm, I havent worn a short sleeve shirt in like 6 months. I would never want anyone to see especially my mom because she always trys to put me in the hospital, but its not because she cares its just because shes always wanted me gone ever since I was young, she use to threaten to abandon me as a child by saying she would put me in a foster home and leave me forever and she came from an abusive foster home so I dont know why she'd say that to me. When she found out I was doing that she called me a physco and said shes never seen anything like it, it really hurts my feelings. She says only a physco would do that. I want to stop but its very hard, it would help because then maybe she wouldn't call me that. I just wish she would help me through it instead of tearing me down even more.