thanks so much guys I love you all so much . I hope that she didn't understand about the old radiators. can I just speak this story..

when I was younger the mother would make me sit in the corner of our dining room for hours sometimes all day depending on what I was being punished for. I had one of those old forced hot water radiators .I would sit next to it for hours .one of the things that I would do was to put my finger tip on it and see how long I could stand it . I was not crazy but I had created this king of imaginary world .I suppose to help me deal with the mother . anyway I filled it with a bunch of faceless voices that would encourage me to do whatever I wanted to do .and this was one of the things. a lot of times it was those voices I created or maybe they were just thoughts kept me alive and going as a kid. even if it was stupid things like encouraging me to burn my fingers . yes sometimes they did blister and if the mother saw them she would pop the blisters and pour salt on them to teach me not to do that. I remember also doing the same thing with the heaters that ran along the pews in church.

I don't know why the mother decided to burn my finger tips on the stove. it may have had something to do with playing with my doll in the bathroom sink. my t seems to believe that she did this to me so maybe it is just a misunderstanding. I don't know if I will be able to talk to her more about it