I saw my Psychiatrist today and I was upset. Upset that I have little control over my bipolar when I'm faced with STRESS.

I also was blaming myself for my Mom's kidney failure. If I could have just figured it out she wouldn't be sick. It isn't rational. He said that it is because I am grieving her loss, but I haven't lost her yet. I was assuming it was just a bipolar symptom. Maybe not.

Has anyone else ever suffered like they lost a loved one, before they lost them?