She gave me a diagnosis via the test results of the Millon Test that is sent to the company for evaluation and it then sent to the Pdoc (who usually gives the report) who gave it to her (I didn't want to talk to him) who gave it to me (verbally) and had hand written some highlights from it (2-3 full pages) but decided not to give it to me to take but instead put it in my file because she was afraid how i'd react, internalize and deeper self loathe at the results. Very complicated process haha.

Edit: She's only brought up my "diagnosis" (one of them) once, but in order to evaluate the context of the conversation.