I felt that way about my mom and then 2 years later with my dad. They have both since actually died. I can see their tombstone from my kitchen window. I often still talk to them. And often still cry about not having them anymore. So no you are not alone.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha