Nope I never had help. I'm bout to be 20 and still do everything on my own completely. I never had an emotional connection to feel comfortable and I have to type a lot of information or else I don't feel good enough or anything get better. I just pretend that I have a friends or people who care until someone shows up sooner or later. Seriously I try to be a good person, but people mistaken how I come off and who I am as a sign to make prejudemental stuff thinking I am not good enough basically. I truly hate myself, because today I want to go to this girl's house and hang out to be in a warm house for once. She is ignoring me altogether, because it's too cold or she is sick. I mean I seriously don't have help. I won't have a therapist or afford one anyways. I can't get help, because that money goes to my food and basics to make my life bearable. I have supportive people in my life, but they aren't good at anything with that. So I just hang out with them. I just got used to being forever stuck in my head alone with this.