In 2011 my BPD was really out of control. I started drinking, popping pills, using hard drugs, and I flunked out of DBT 8 months in. to a 12 month program. I said and did a lot of things I'm not proud of.
Today I've been clean for 17 months and I'm going back to DBT. I've really turned things around. I'm here for my kids, my best friend started speaking to me again.
The thing is, there's this one friend who I still haven't reconciled with. The last time I talked to this friend I was wasted, and I said some really ugly things I wish I could take back in a serious way. Fear of rejection is keeping me from having the nerve to approach this friend, but I still think about this person. I was telling my fiancé about this person, and he tells me I should try and make peace with this person, that they'll understand that I was going through some real hard times back then. but I'm really afraid that's not the case.
Does anyone have advice who's been there? or even just some advice in general? I mean, is my fiancé right? or should I just drop it?
Thanks in advance.