I am so anxious about my appt in 5 hours that I can't work and my stomach hurts. I am anxious because after last week's appt I had a crazy email meltdown of neediness which he never responded to. I'm nervous about what his reaction is going to be.

He usually always tells me how he loves working with me and looks forward to seeing me but now I think he isn't going to give me those reassurances anymore. They really felt good.

I'm just afraid he sees me differently and not in a flattering way.

Oh boy.