When something like that happens, it's always easy to let your mind get out of control with worry that this time, things will be different. This time, your T will finally see you for what you "really are." But I think it's helpful to think back to all the times you worried about the same thing and your T didn't react negatively. Ts understand that we have highs and lows. It's okay to have a meltdown now and again. Good luck with your session, and I hope it goes well. Please let us know what happens.