I am so depressed and no real reason to show for it. I keep having bad thoughts like nobody cares about me and I'm a loser...many more too. I have morbid thoughts and images...I won't do anything because I can't do that to my child who needs me. I can't tell my T because I can't risk being hospitalized if he over reacts. I'm not so sure therapy is helping or even can really help much anyway cause I'm not completely honest. I feel like Im floating away and nobody really cares. I can't sleep. I'm either overeating or eating nothing all day. I'm smoking too much. Im just spiraling. I don't know what to do about all of this