Rainbow, you've got me thinking about my own relationship with my T. I wonder what I would do if I could access her FB page.

I do not have the same kind of relationship with my T as you do with yours. I am able to go weeks without seeing her now and I do o.k.

But, if more info were available about her on the web, I'm not sure I would have the willpower to stay away.

I am very accustomed to researching anything and everything and gathering info is very normal for me.

I do understand that your situation is different in that it's more an obsession possibly and that is damaging to you. But, I'm not sure that accessing any information that is available is all that bad. It's not like you break into her house or do devious things to learn more about her.

I like what some have said about possibly not taking your actions so to heart. I imagine that if I felt guilty about googling (I don't feel guilty) my T, that guilt would ramp up every time I did it and it would become a bigger issue than it really is.

idk - just some thoughts...