To give you all an update. I told him today. He was not happy with me, as expected. I hate hurting him, but it was time to man up. I couldn't live life as a huge lie anymore. I pray that he is okay because I hurt someone close and dear to me that didn't deserve it. I've surprisingly received a lot of support from mutual friends. They told me they were proud of me for admitting to something that isn't easy to admit to. My friend that I did this to did tell me he wished I was dead and that has kind of bothered me a bit. Even though he has every right to be upset with me it just struck a nerve.

As for the alcohol use, I want to thank you all for your input on this and maybe it really is the majority of the problem with issues in my life. So I pledge to slow down and eventually become sober.

Going forward, I really want to strive to be a better person. I want people to remember me as a good friend and person, not the guy that did this to someone he cared about and called a friend. I want to stop being so selfish and think about others before every action that could be considered questionable.

I know this won't happen overnight but I am striving to improve myself in a lot of aspects. I can't go back now, I just have to learn to accept the consequences and learn from them.

Thank you all for the advice thus far you all are amazing. Please feel free to add some more advice/feelings/reactions (positive or negative). I will keep you posted on my road to being a better person.