I was struck by this feeling today as I was eating rice pudding. I guess this is my life? Waking up and eating rice pudding and maybe feeling sick in the morning and maybe not?

Normally I am ok with this because I have anxiety and I just want a drama free existence. But this morning, and every so often, it bothers me.

Does this mean I should try and live a more meaningful and exciting life or is this feeling always going to pop up no matter what I do?

To give you a snapshot, I live with my parents, and am 35, have very low libido due to medication, and losing my hair and i haven't worked for 3 years and have never had any friends except for one year in high school when i was friends with a couple of guys one of whom eventually ended up bullying me.

Thoughts?