Hi all. This is my first time posting here.

I am 32 and have been on various drugs since the age of around 16 or 17. I have been through many addictions and the most recent is with Subutex (herion substitute) and have taken it for the last 3 years (while on occasion dabbling in coke, and speed). I was clean for 2 months but the past 4 days have been difficult emotionally. Today was the worst and had a major argument with my husband...it was all too much and I gave into the urge. I don't really know what I am asking of you guys...I have never sought out help with drugs as deep down I have always believed I could stop doing them if I wanted to but it seems I can't

What kind of help is there for this? I mean, 'how' can someone help me? Is it a case of therapy and dealing with the underline issues or is there something I can do that doesn't require therapy? I am on a waiting list right for my BPD issues but wondering if it's worth seeing a separate drugs counsellor or organisation.

How do you cope when in crisis? My ways in the past of coping, when unable to obtain drugs, was to binge eat to the point of throwing up or hurting myself. I know there has to be a better way. I just don't know what.

Thanks