Hi

I'm saying this because things have been going really well lately. I finished my class and will graduate in December.

The problem is I think I'm starting to have delusions. I'm starting to think that people know what I'm thinking, or that at times I can pry into their mind.

Last night at dinner I felt like the entire conversation was about me. Everything everyone said was somehow correlated to what I was thinking at that moment and their attempt to control me.

I yelled about this on the way back from Red Lobster when my mom was making fun of my dad for going to a really nice instead of our car. She said "come back to reality." After already thinking that I'm losing my mind I explode on the way back when my brother tells me to "just be happy." Sister says "not on dad's birthday." I'm like "**** you, you don't know what it's like."

I'm pissed because I was doing real well. I'm on 750mg of depakote. Recently been looking into lucid dreaming and had alcohol last weekend.