trdleblue, I empathize so much with that feeling like this is just what IS and there's not much point in continuing to try. When that happened for me about a month and a half ago, it was followed shortly after by a HUGE shift for me in therapy and in my life. My T hung in there with me in trying to keep moving and working past it, and suddenly I feel like I am making dramatic strides. This may just be your defense mechanisms kicking in trying to prevent that next, painful but necessary step in therapy. I will be thinking of you and hoping for the best for you.