Star,
I feel for you. My boyfriend sounds a lot like yours. Willing to help me through all the crap I do to myself and I often wonder why he does. Then I start thinking that I do not deserve him and he will leave me because I am making him hate me. It is a horrible cycle isnt it?
The people on this board are very understanding and most are willing to chat to help whenever they can. I hope that things can start to work out for you.

Stay strong,
Jessica

<font color=blue> You are in this snowglobe. It is encovered in glass and secure. But one day someone comes and shakes the globe and the pieces go flying everywhere. Now they will eventually settle but they won't be the way they were before and they can never be that way again. </font color=blue>