I feel as if I am cycling right now. But I don't know if it's because of my bipolar or the ***** that's going on in my life right now or a combo. Unfortunately I do not have a T right now. I know I need one, but the thought of having to tell my life story all over again is daunting. I know I would break down and I just cannot handle talking about it. I don't want to go through changing or adding meds. I am terrified of any side effects I might suffer. I have had some pretty bad ones in the past. One turned me into a violent alcoholic, which is so out of character for me, and put me in the mental hospital. I don't know what to do.

Anyone have any experiences like this or have any advice? Thank you for listening. I am so glad I found this site. I don't feel so isolated.