((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Larry))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I am so sorry for your double loss. How tragic. You will probably feel numb for some time to come. Losing one parent is tough but losing them both in such short of time, is tragic.
I lost my Dad when I was 42 and my Mother when I was 46. I am now 52 and it still hurts.
Holidays are just not the same anymore.
I wish you peace as you begin your new journey without your parents.
Do you have any siblings that might be able to help you get through this? Of course, they can also make it more difficult, I found out the hard way.
The best thing I found out to do to help get through it was to talk about it alot. Talk about it whenever you can, instead of keeping it inside. The more you keep it inside, the more it builds and then you are going to have to let go sometime and then it is worse.
Wishing the best for you and come here anytime you need to talk. Let us know how you are doing.
Hugs,
Linda