Allme,
I can't see how anyone could judge for feeling bitter about that, that is horrible.
I'm really sorry you had to experience that, and then just experience bullying after that

. I am sure you did try, some people you just can't win with and it is really awful that these mentalities exsist out there. When you are a child you don't really have a choice just to not be around people like this. I have been bullied and such, outcast because I was poor or for other reasons. Now that I am an adult and can choose I don't spend time with people that are not accepting of others or bullies. Just cannot be around that. But it's not really an option for children at school.
And how could a teacher not see you crying and alone along the fence and not step in, uggh that just really bothers me that it is allowed to happen at all, or a blind eye turned to it. I'm very sorry that happened.