I'm Greg. Thanks to the management for the site. Looking for answers to some questions, I have come here to try to find them and others that will likely arise. Dx'd with bipolar disorder in 2006, I consider myself pretty stable, but am trying to sort through a life without the sparkle that I know the condition can offer. While it appears to be functional enough, satisfactions are few and far between: no more elation at having a new insight for instance and expecting that anhedonia, possibly to the point of dysfunction, is playing a part. Assurances that this is what the "normal" population typically experiences serve to render me ambivalent, and I feel at once vague desolation for my present state and a mix of sorrow and concern for those who have not experienced the heights. Possibly the most compelling aspect of my present state lies in wondering if behaviors that are not appropriate and that were always accompanied by those intense emotions, and which remain even after having found ostensibly adequate treatment, are things intrinsic to the pathology and can now better be managed or even done altogether away with, or if they are here to stay. If not, then it would behoove me to find ways to manage them, as it has been difficult to impossible to do that in any effective sense for most of the last sixty years.