i have apparently had anxiety all my life. first few instances involving it...

i was 6 or so and a cousin died from heart failure at 30. my parents took me to the visitation and i saw his dead body and freaked out so bad. i was so stressed out that the next day i went to the bathroom and i remember there was blood everywhere and they took me to the doctor. my heart rate was sky high and they had me on a monitor for 24 hours. they didn't find anything. i guess i had just been constipated or something.

i was 5 or 6, in kindergarten, taking some kind of test. i was stressing out so much about it that i scratched my temple raw while taking the test. when i got home, my great grandma saw the scab, i guess, and freaked out.

but those are the only real anxiety-related things from my childhood that i remember. now, after having my second child, my anxiety has sky-rocketed because when he was born he had jaundice and i just freaked and thought i had eaten something wrong while i was pregnant and i blamed myself for him being sick and all that, haha. since then, i can't handle a lot of stuff going on at once.

i'm very nervous about social interaction. i have to mentally prepare myself for like a week or more before i'm okay with it. and sometimes i'm just not, but i have to work because we're always broke. oh, and i'm in charge of the finances, so i'm constantly stressed out about that.

so no, not caused by one single event. i've had a ton of events that have caused my anxiety. it sucks.