Do you want to be like your T? Do some of the things she/he does? Act like she/he does? It's probably part of my pattern, but I'm wondering if I'm the only one who wants to "copy" their T.

I know her suggestions are to help me, but I'm doing even more to be like her. It's because I don't have enough self-confidence. I feel like I'm competing with her. I'm doing more with my art and photos because she suggested I do it, but also because I want to be like her. I want to go swimming, not only because I like it, but because T does.

When I got jealous of people on FB commenting on T's photo, I decided to put one of my paintings on MY FB page so I'm starting to get responses, just like T! She recommended a book; I already called the library to reserve it.

She suggested my taking an art course, so I'm going nuts trying to find one for myself. It's hard; they're all expensive.

These are positive steps, doing what I want to do, but I'm noticing I'm trying to be like T. She's a role model for me. I want to be happy and confident like she is. I also want to be thinner and I've lost 5 lbs. so far. Like I said, these are positive steps, but I feel a little "driven". It could also be that I feel like time is running out. Life is not a dress rehearsal-- you know that phrase. I don't know if I'm in Act 3 or 4, but I'm sure not in Act 1 or 2 anymore!

So, my basic question is: does anyone feel like I do, and want to do the things their T does. and/or have the personality that their T has?