Thanks everyone. No news today. That actually makes me feel worse. I get physically ill feeling whenever I think about it but I can't control it. Anxiety controls me and manifests physically far too often.

Thanks for the good wishes and kind thoughts and support as always. (((((((((((((Everyone)))))))))))))))

I talked to T today and I have an appointment next week instead of two weeks from now because of this happening. I can't deal. I really can't.