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Originally Posted by tigergirl
I don't ... I want to be a better healthier version of me
sometimes my T might mention things that I'm also interested in; and my ex-T encouraged me to read a few books he liked for example but the motivation was never about being more like him
it's great you are making positive changes Rain; but is there a way you could do them as a way to further develop Rain (who may share interests with her T) rather than trying to be like your T? for example, enjoying the swimming and doing that because it is your own interest rather than because your T does it  |
There's always something "off" about me because of my "pattern". I already enjoyed swimming before I knew my T swims. I think she does it for exercise while I do it for fun. I don't want to be an exercise freak like she is. No offense to those who work out extensively; it's great, but not for me. However, I can't "turn off" the switch that wants to be like T. Maybe it's the child stage of "wanting to be like Mommy". Hankster, come and help me here, please!
I feel right now like it's a younger part of me who is seeing T as a kind of celebrity/role model. At least I'm doing things that I wanted to do anyway. That's got to be a good thing. I'll talk to her about this feeling of wanting to be like her, probably.
I was hoping I'm not the only one who does this.