I am extremely alone, and depressed with no support. I am very depressed and sleepless. I want a poly relationship with a triad of two girls I am a straight male. I know people are more accepting of it in other cities, but not mine. Everyone is a ****ing ****! They tell me to give on a dream that won't come true. I just want to give up living and hate telling people especially girls I like. Only to find out they are disgusted deep down and want to be my friend forever basically. My mom doesn't ever support me on this she rather bash me for being a satanist or adulterer and get married to one person. I just want to end my life, because I am stuck in the closet and every time I put a foot out. I get attacked from all angles. I just want to be me and there is no room for that lifestyle amongst my friends and family. I am 19 bout 20 and I am very clear with this, I don't want to be with older couples I want people my age. Girls I like, that's it without being treated like **** and have the freedom for it.
Thankyou