There are certainly a lot of things i admire about my T, and would love to do the things that she does. but i know that her ability to do those things has come through having had her own therapy to build her own confidence and self-assurance.
In that way, yes i want to be like my T. But i want to be my own version of her..if that makes sense?

Rainbow- Do you have any other people that you can look at IRL that have qualities you admire? Perhaps your T is the only person to have a positive influence in your life, therefore you want to be like her, because being around her makes you feel good?