Hello KingNobody17-Wow-you do have so much going on. Anyone would be overwhelmed. I agree with what Healing Times wrote. I am sorry about your family situation. I hope that your sister will come around and be supportive and compassionate toward you. I think that often times people feel fearful and powerless with serious issues-not that it helps you when you need support the most. Believe me, I understand the pain of having people that I loved turn away when I needed them the most.

As far as seeking help, I think there are places who will help you free of charge but it does require research to find them. Every location is different as far as what they offer so I can't give you a link, I'm sorry to say. I know that when we are overwhelmed it can be so daunting to find the help we need. I would suggest that you might contact a free clinic and let the doctor know what you are struggling with and hopefully they can steer you to some help for your specific problems. SI is a tough thing to shake-especially when you're also dealing with addictions and other issues. I would start with the Internet search of free services in your location and then let them know all of your struggles so they can offer some resources to help you. And, I would do what you're doing now, looking at sites that are designed to help people with your specific concerns. There are some threads in this section of the forum that help to give alternatives to SI. I can only say that you are not alone. You are going through so much but you deserve to be healed and you deserve peace and you deserve compassion and you deserve support. I think it is awesome that you found this forum and that you shared your story with us. I wish you all the best.