Thank you guys so much for responding. I am feeling a little better today. I went home and slept after work yesterday and then got up and journaled some and then prayed alot. My appointment with T is thursday. I am going to try and work up the courage to ask him when he would consider it appropiate for me to contact him between sessions and also if it is alright to email him. Alexandra - I think I would rather email - it might make it easier to say things. I always have a ton of things I want to ask or say but I never can get it out. I haven't tried it yet but I thought about it - I noticed his email address on his business card. I appreciate all your input.