Hi. I.. my mom died when I was a kid. I didn't even see her. My family started abusing me.. mentally, verbally, emotionally and physically (sometimes but never sexually). I'm 16. I'm hated because I'm fat, ugly..not one of those beautiful kinds. I'm nobody. That's what I'm told... that I'm nobody. I don't matter? I don't deserve to live? I have no friends. I tried to kill myself 4 months ago but unfortunately, I survived. I'm trying to stay strong but, I have nobody to call mine. No one cares or understands. A teacher molested me when I was 13. I didn't dare to tell a soul because my family themselves abuse me.. will they care that I was molested? No.
I don't know. I pray whenever I go to sleep that I don't wake up to see another day. Nothing's okay. My family is gonna kick me out when I'm 20. Can I just turn off my emotions. I don't wanna feel.