I was trying to pinpoint for someone the other day why I started cutting. I didn't know any cutters at the time, and it wasn't yet a hot media topic, so I hadn't been exposed to it that way. I just remember laying in bed one day and thinking a knife across my back would feel pretty good, so I went and did it. (I'm a sick pup, I know.) It worked pretty well and so I kept it up, though my targets have changed over the years.

I went and bought a lighter the other day. This sounds innocuous, and I had a reason, sort of -- I'm useless with matches and I got a nice scented candle for Christmas that I wanted to burn. But, I've been thinking for awhile that burning sounded like a good idea, and now I have the means and no good reason not to indulge myself. Can somebody give me one? Because otherwise, this is going to get just as out of hand as the cutting has, I can already tell.

I'm a nutjob, I know.

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