I often feel the same way. I feel like a black cloud is always over me and everyone around me doesn't see it. Their lives aren't perfect, but much better than mine. Doesn't it seem like some people have all the 'luck' in life? Not all of course but some just have it good. I have friends who have it all. Granted they aren't happy all of the time but I know that if I had 1/2 of what they did my life would be a lot better. I scratch my head sometimes wondering if any of these people take meds for depression or something else. One of my dearest friends is super successful and I found out recently she is on anti-depressants and used to cut herself. I was beside myself. I have not ever had any diagnosed or realized problems while growing up. The last few years have yielded mishaps and horrible things one right after another and little by little it has broken me down. It has literally brought me to my knees and my strength sucked right out of me. I have lost most of my family which was small and I am left with lots of loneliness. This feeling is horrible and I hate it. I would like to tell you that you are special, you are important so don't ever feel like you aren't! We are dealt with things in this life that we have to trudge through and believe I know it is not easy. I struggle everyday to find hope and tell myself things will get better. I keep trying and refuse to give up. I have good days and bad days. Hang in there and I'm here if you want a chat friend.