Depression's been kicking my butt pretty bad these days. When I get this depressed my first inclination is to isolate; as of now I haven't left the house in five days. I generally go to 5-7 AA meetings a week, but haven't been going lately. It's not that I'm worried about drinking...It's the simple fact that getting out to meetings breaks my pattern of isolation.

Being on SSDI makes it easy for me to totally isolate. I guess I'm just writing to whine, as the solution is "simple" -- just get my butt out of the door to get to meetings whether I feel like talking, or not. I haven't, however, showered in almost a week & I really don't feel like I can talk at meetings. I always feel guilty when I simply pass. I guess I'm just writing to complain about being stuck & isolated.