Everyday of my life. For a first time Im in a healthy functioning relationship with someone who I truly care about, my son is 15 not on drugs, straight A student, and I have a wonderful puppy who adores me..I KNOW these things..I can see them..can touch them..but something inside of me pulls me into another direction.

I know your pain and understand....find something small, even if you think its insignificant and hold on to it....pull strength from it and own it.

Even if only a moment..you'll feel better...please don't give up..I havent