Hello Simon. I hope things get better for you soon. Have you thought about volunteering at a hospital or Senior Center and sharing your music with them. I feel part of your problem is that you feel that you are not thriving not having a job at the moment Simon it is okay to take time off and recuperate from depression, anyone with depression knows depression is not something that can be controlled like magic sometimes. It is a chemical imbalance and Must be addressed as a biological condition just like diabetes or other ailments. Have you had a physical or have you called your therapist and Dr to let them know that you are in a critical frame of mind. The professionals can help you if you let them know that you are not thriving at this time. I also think if you start something positive in your life when you feel beterit will help you get motivated to think more positively. Volunteering and helping others part time is good for some people and you are very talented and have a lot to offer as far as volunteering at different places or organizations. I really hope you feel better soon and I sincerely Hope that you call your therapist and Dr and get the help you need and deserve Simon you are too talented to not do something with your talents. I hope the best for you in the future. Take care Soidhonia