I have personal experience with laxative abuse, and i'm TELLING you that it will spiral out of control. I thought I would never get out of the cycle. It was addicting. But you have to stop taking them. i stopped when i went to the doctor and they checked my metabolism and it was completely messed up. That's when I really opened my eyes to the damage i'm causing myself. It's not worth it. Just eat extremely healthy foods. I started by only eating my safe foods. Like chicken and vegetables were 2 of mine, and begin to implement those types of things into your diet. I wish the best for you