Well she is not exactly new as I seen her briefly last year.
I really liked her and felt she was really attuned and different. For whatever reasons it didn't work out and I ended up seeing ex t.
So new t was really attuned, she asked me if I was there because I came in all flustered and nervous. She asked if I needed a moment to arrive, I said I was fine.
So we began and I found I couldn't talk, I kept stumbling and then started to laugh. This has never happened to me before and I was really embarrassed, I just kept giggling. T started to laugh too and said it was contagious.
I don't think I will have any worry with transference as she is only 10 years older than me. She wears really cool clothes, rainbow jumpers and doc martins.
She has very kind eyes and after the giggles I really could talk to her and she listened I mean really listened. I told her I feel different and that there is something wrong with me, she assured me there wasn't. She said I feel different because I am different. She said maybe I just haven't met anyone who understands me yet. She said that it is understandible that I don't feel understood because people dismiss me all the time and I have been told from a child that I am weird and that there was something wrong with me. She said often gay people feel like that because they don't fit in with the norm in society but if I was surrounded by loving people who accepted me for what I am then I would start to feel alright.
I told her stuff that had happened in work and she showed great empathy and challenged me a few times about my thoughts- I was glad she did this because I was able to see what happened in a new light and see that it had to happen the way it did and it was nothing personal.
She really helped and I like that she is so honest, a few times she cursed when she got mad and apologised but I said it didn't matter, I liked she was honest and I liked that she said to email her if I needed to next week as she will be away for a few weeks now.