I canceled an appointment because I had been feeling horrible and I just couldn't muster up the energy to express my emotions. I knew it would hurt too much. I am now feeling guilty and weak. I lied and said I was sick. I think I should now tell my therapist of my avoidance of emotions at our next session. But now I'm going to probably have to pay for the last minute cancelation and risk looking like a jerk for wasting the therapists time. Any advice?