So, last month (i think, maybe two?) I forced myself to vomit. I was very upset, and literally felt like my ball of emotions was in my stomach. However, I don't want the eroding teeth, etc. and decided to not do that again. After about two days the urges went away.

Today, I purged (although, forgive me if i'm not using the correct term) after dinner simply because I felt like self harming. I'd cut about an hour before and just made up my mind that I would purge as well.

Is this self harm if I don't do it more than once a month? I know its not "healthy" but right now, thats not my concern. Does it even "count" as self harm? While I would like to lose weight (most women probably do at some point or another), that is not my intent behind doing it. I could care less about weight loss, and I did not overeat before doing it. I simply ate my normal portion and then went to do it. It feels like a "less permanent" way to self harm then cutting?

I sincerely apologize if this post is offensive to anyone, I'm not trying to step on any toes for anyone who has a legitimate eating disorder, nor am I trying to develop one. I simply had the idea to do it before, and now, a month or two later I had the notion to do it again.

I told T the first time I did it (and that I didn't intend to do it again) and she didn't say anything about it - so I really don't think its a big deal, I would just rather it not develop into something bigger. Is that possible?