Hello everyone......I really need to know what's going on here. Please, please, please, any insight, thoughts, opinions would be very much appreciated.

I can't focus on my exams. And I try to motivate myself into doing so, right? I think: "Hey, this is for your future, you don't want to disappoint your friends or your family, you want to get to a good university, THIS is the BIG DEAL. THIS IS IT. there's no turning back! You don't want to repeat your A lvls while everyone else is going to uni!"

BUT IT DOESN'T WORK! usually it scares me to work hard, but this time it doesn't. It's like I've given up and become helpless. I'm a failure no matter what i do, and my friends and family think otherwise. Maybe I'm sooo pressured i'm not able to work properly. I only feel emptiness and...nothing. I WANT to feel something! I want to feel motivated and alive to do work!! but i can't !!! Maybe i'm just depressed, IDK! help! I don't want to be a failure...but there's no incentive to work!!! It's never happened before! It's scaring me...