I am trying to connect to a suicide hotline to chat online since I can't talk on the phone when my brother and kids are here and my husband is about to be back any minute.

ETA:

I did end up taking about 3200 mg of Ibuprofen, a Flexeril tab, and 2 Fioricet tabs tonight. Not enough to do anything, but now I feel like I really have gone off the deep end. I will force myself to go to sleep as I have a 12 hour clinical shift tomorrow. Ugh.

Sorry for posting all this tonight.