"You" may not be all there. That's why you've forgotten and dampened your emotions, etc. (unconsciously, not intentionally). The problem is, one cannot be selective in those things and so you're probably not able to experience/exhibit the full range of yourself and your emotions. That is sad for me because you can't be very happy as well as not being very sad. It's like a continuum and you only have a little piece in the "middle" where there's not much "interesting" to feel.