polkadotpixie, fayerody, soidhonia and perna, thank you for your suggestions.

having a conversation with biplol earlier, i suddenly realised what the problem is. i want to do it too much! i love music, and i am so desperate to start recording my own, to get my voice out there, that i was forcing myself into it and not letting it flow. i need vocal training, as the voice is as much of an instrument as, say, a guitar. i cant expect to pick a guitar up and know exactly how to play it straight off without any practice or training. so why do i expect to with my voice...well not anymore. i realised i need vocal coaching, so i will start that soon.

i have decided to step back from making my own music and to begin focusing on getting back to being mentally happy, then together with the vocal training, i should begin building more confidence.

im generally unhappy these days, not just about my music, but allsorts. i feel lonely, and feel i have nothing to offer the world.

perna, i will be sure to set tasks to achieve. first one will be to sort my sleeping patterns out as i am going to sleep very late and getting up very late, which makes me unhappy too.

simon